I really do love my bed. It's enormous, and it's squashy, and I have a lovely thick duvet on it so that I feel totally cocooned when I curl up in it. I also love sleeping. I suppose now that I don't drink any more, its my favourite hobby. One side effect of sobriety has been that my sleep quality is increasing, but also that I don't have much trouble settling down now. Although my goal of getting up at 6am has moved to 7am, going to bed by 10 has been easy - in fact it's been a pleasure.
Tell the truth, I've been upstairs by half 8 all week, reading with SmallPerson while hubby is away, sharing lights out time and the duvet with her. It's been lovely.
What's unusual about all this is that I have a ton of work to do, and normally I would be really stressed out and sitting here in the evening working on it. My ability to shut off at 6pm and spend time with my daughter, do a few things around the house, and just relax, is a new one and I think a positive thing. I'm just generally more relaxed, going with the flow a little more. I even lay in the long grass today for a few minutes when I was out with the dog, and didn't feel TOO guilty about taking my time going back to work.
I'm also taking a lot more care of myself, which I don't think is a conscious decision, but more perhaps that I like myself a bit more so think I'm worth it. Things have been happening with nail varnish and moisturiser! I definitely think my skin looks a bit plumper, though it's still pretty uneven in tone - perhaps that's just the way it is anyway though. I'm not really a makeup person but I'm sure a bit of foundation would sort it out if I really started to care.
The sign up sheet for the school summer fair went up today. I nabbed the position I have always wanted without thinking - running the beer and pimms stand for an hour. Whoops. Still, it'll be sort of interesting to look at how much people drink, and who drinks, and who comes back for a second one. Last year, I was the person coming back for a third and wishing it was my job to sit there and pour it out! I'm not nervous that it will make me want to drink, and I hope my confidence lasts.
im sure smaller son loves that too.
ReplyDeleteWe create busy lives for ourselves. Taking a few minutes to lay in the grass is necessary. Nice!
In retrospect I wish I'd lain there a little longer - I told myself I would do it again the next day but it's rained ever since!
DeleteI love my bed too! I am going to bed around nine now, and try to get some sleep. I try to relax more at night, take my mind off work and alcohol. This week was pretty shitty though.
ReplyDeleteSeems like you found a nice way to unwind at night. Keep on doing it.
Yeah it's worked well! Hubs is back tonight disrupting the new routine...and it's friday, and I've got a ton of work still to do, so I understand about needing to take your mind off it. It seems the more there is happening, the more alcohol creeps into the brain as well.
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